Kurt has been gone for two weeks and 2 days ... yes, I am counting down now. Only 6 sleeps! I have been doing pretty well as a single mom... but today I woke up and just did not want to get out of bed. I would have liked to stay in bed feeling sorry for myself all day .... letting the children feed themselves cereal and bananas and watch Barney on TV. Unfortunately, today was not one of those open days. Julia had a party this morning and this afternoon I was volunteering at Mila's school, assisting with a Valentine's party. Between that we had to fit in Liam's nap time .... and some other minor errands.
My friend, Jaime, who has been so wonderful checking up on me and hanging out with me - was watching Julia and Liam while I was at school with Mila. When I picked them up I was not feeling much different from how I woke up... just more fragile... like I was on the brink of tears.
I got home and put Liam down for a nap and put the girls in front of the TV while I escaped to my room to wallow in my misery. Eventually I emerged and sent the girls outside to play while I tried to think what I could do with black beans to make them an attractive meal. Just as I was stepping out to check on the girls ... Jaime walked in laden with salad and sandwiches and all things wonderful. I almost burst into tears. You should know that Jaime has 3 children of her own (4 and under) and is pregnant.
Needless to say I have pulled myself (somewhat) together and know I will make it through the weekend. I made black bean soup tonight (when everyone went to sleep) and will take some to the potluck at work tomorrow. Dinner will be ready when I bring 3 sleepy children home at about 730pm - it will be straight to sleep.
These words from a hymn have been in my head all night
"The errand of angels is given to women
and this is a gift that, as sisters, we claim.
To do whatsoever is gentle and human,
to cheer and to bless in humanity's name"
Thank you for being my angel today, Jaime! And my hero!
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
3 comments:
Hello Sylvia,
I am sorry to hear that you were having a hard day. Those happen sometimes and I just want to crawl under a rock. When that happens It just reminds me how much the Lord knows. He must know more than I do to think I can handle some of the things he sends my way. HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO YOU! Wish you were closer, I am having a chocolate party on Wednesday. However, after reading your blog awhile back I think Chocolate might not be a good thing for you. I too have noticed that some of the things I eat definately have an effect on my body and my mood. Hang in there, know that someone in Arizona loves you and kiss the kids for us. By the way, I love black beans. I put them on my salad with corn, I add them to my stew, I like them refried and mixed with cheese. My friend makes a black bean and corn relish, it is delicious. Hugs, Janet
I wish that I could be there to give you a HUGE BIG hug for stcking it out alone and without your husband. I must tell you though that he is working hard this side to get all your legallities sorted and in order. He is, at the moment, with the Receiver of Revenue (IRS for USA).
Love and miss you all loads. XXXXX
Oh Sylvia, this post made me so sad and so happy at the same time. I'm glad you have good friends out in the netherworld you have moved to ;). I also relate to the "brink of tears" feeling when the usual supports are gone for some reason. I wish you were still here but at least we'll all see each other in Heaven. So be good, we don't want to blow it. I'll try too.
Post a Comment